Let it go

Smile like you mean it
And let yourself let go
Cos it's all in the hands of a bitter, bitter man
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
Take a bow, play the part of a lonely lonely heart
Say goodbye to the world you thought you lived in
To the world you thought you lived in
I tried to live alone
But lonely is lonely, alone
So human as I am
I had to give up my defences
So I smiled and tried to mean it
To let myself let go

(extracts from Any Other World,Mika)

I could be brown...

Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty?
Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?

I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!

How can I help it
How can I help it
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby
Hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like me
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?

I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I try a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!

I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!

Say what you want to satisfy yourself
But you only want what everybody else says you should want

(Grace Kelly by Mika)

Reboot

After all, love fades away, relationships die, people die, computers crash. All we can do is breathe and reboot.
Because in life, there is no ctrl-alt-del.

Segredos

Eu procuro um amor
que ainda não encontrei
diferente de todos que amei

Nos seus olhos quero descobrir
uma razão para viver
e as feridas dessa vida
eu quero esquecer

Pode ser que eu te encontre
numa fila de cinema
numa esquina ou numa mesa de bar

Procuro um amor
que seja bom pra mim
vou procurar, eu vou até o fim

E eu vou te tratar bem
pra que voce não tenha medo
quando começar a conhecer
os meus segredos

Eu procuro um amor
uma razão para viver
e as feridas dessa vida
eu quero esquecer

Pode ser que eu gagueje
sem saber o que falar
mas eu disfarço
e não saio sem voce de lá

Procuro um amor
que seja bom pra mim
vou procurar, eu vou até o fim

(musica de Barao Vermelho)

Drowned World

I traded fame for love
Without a second thought
It all became a silly a game
Some things cannot be bought

I got exactly what I asked for
Wanted it so badly
Running, rushing back for more
I suffered fools so gladly

And now I find
I've changed my mind

The face of you
My substitute for love
My substitute for love
Should I wait for you?
My substitute for love
My substitute for love

I traveled round the world
Looking for a home
I found myself in crowded rooms
Feeling so alone

I had so many lovers
Who settled for the thrill
Of basking in my spotlight
I never felt so happy

Famous faces, far off places
Trinkets I can buy
No handsome stranger, heady danger
Drug that I can try
No ferris wheel, no heart to steal
No laughter in the dark
No one-night stand, no far-off land
No fire that I can spark

Now I find I've changed my mind
This is my religion

Future lovers hide love inside their eyes II

Not controlled by time
Future lovers shine for eternity
In a world that's free
Put away your past
Love will never last
If you're holding on to a dream that's gone

Line of thought

When I look around, it would be childish of me to deny that my life isn't changing. But for this night, just a coffee can show lots of stuff, for those who can see. That's the thing about really good moments and a really great Montreal.

X

Last night I got to thinking about the x-factor. In mathmatics, we learn that x stands for the unknown, a+b=x, but what's really unknown is what plus what equals friendship with an x. Is this an unsolvable equation? Or is it possible to transform a once passionate love into something that fits nice and easily onto the friendship shelf? I couldn't help but wonder... can you be friends with an x?
Surely...I made friends with most of my xs.
Just don't think people are disposable.
But, anyone in your life should be a plus.
If you+x < you-x then you should review the algorithm of this friendship...

The door

I've done the merry-go-round. I've been through the revolving doors. I feel like I've met somebody I can stand still with for a minute. And don't you want to stand still with me?

Afraid of the dark....

When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun, then you grow up and learn to be cautious; you could break a bone, or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there is no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?
No idea...anyone?